Resolving to Trust
Why is it every time I see your effort and availability towards others it makes me sad and depressed. I have tried so hard to build a relationship with no reciprocation. My heart breaks to think of the lost memories and time spent feeling disconnected. I have reached out through letters and phone calls yet you still do NOT understand how I feel…
God is a safe place to hide, ready to help when we need him. Psalm 46:1 The Message
Space seems to be the only good thing for me right now. I am feeling so hurt and sad to think I mean so little to you that you can not just put in a little effort.
Why is it that every time they need you, you run to their rescue but when I need you there are a million and one excuses?
At this point I do not care anymore and I will not allow myself to be affected by your words, actions, reaction or inaction towards me and my family.
Sometimes it is better to just walk away and learn to live without certain people in your life…
I wish I could better understand my feelings but sadly I do not and probably NEVER will…
We all deal with difficult relationship but what I am realizing is allowing the hurt, resentment and anger to drive us crazy is counterproductive instead; we must turn over these difficult relationship to God. There are some things we may NEVER fully understand and in relinquishing control we can heal and move forward in our lives. This can be difficult but space brings about healing and hope.
This does not mean totally shutting people out of our lives but I believe it means putting up a healthy boundary so you can spend time with God and heal your broken heart.
Relationships are NOT easy and since we are all hardwired for connection those close relationships can be the hardest.
With God we can learn to love the difficult to love and we can learn to put our hearts safely in God’s hands.
Hurting people hurt people.
So let us pray, set healthy boundaries and be patient with God as He continues a mighty work in each of our lives.
Anger is frustration at the fact that we are not God, and do not have control over reality. -Henry Cloud